I’m a 16 year old guy, a junior in high school. Straight A student, president of student council and several other clubs. I live in a rich town, my parents are very successful business owners and we have a lot of money. I’m expected to go to Harvard or another Ivy League. I have no problems at home, my parents are together and happy. I’m very popular at school.
The point I’m trying to get across is basically, I’m the last person you would expect to have this problem.
For about 3 years I’ve been taking prescription drugs, specifically oxycontin. At first I would just swallow them a couple times a month. Then you know how it goes, i started taking them every week. Then twice a week. A year ago I started taking fioricet. Thats when my problem really started. I have been taking those every day for about a year now. I cant get through the day without at least 10 pills. 4 or 5 at a time. I’m a little more scared of oxycodone so I try to take that only 3-5 days a week. I’ll take any other opiate I can get my hands on and recently I’ve started taking adderall when I can get it.
Heres where it really gets bad. Within the last month I’ve started snorting everything (except the fioricet, you cant snort those). Like I said, I’m pretty strict about not taking oxy every day but on the days I take it, I take 40-50 mg. I’ve done 80mg pills in a day.
I started leaving class to go to the bathroom to do a line of oxy or a line of adderall. I pop fioricet all day in class. Its funny, me, the class president will leave my AP class to go snort drugs in the bathroom..
On the weekends when I’m hanging out with people, I drink, smoke and of course the pills.
I have NEVER felt any withdrawl effects. And when I have cravings its not like I feel like I need it, I just want to feel good. The way you crave ice cream. But it seems like this is becoming a problem.
Dont say rehab, its not that bad and its just not an option. Talking to someone isnt an option either and I wont do that. And honestly, I dont want to stop completely. I just need help cutting back.
Honestly, I do not want to stop completely is what an addict says. Then you know how it goes…you start taking more, the addict says.
You are messing around with some serious drugs. You think you can control withdrawal because you are never completely off anything. I know you do not want the lecture because you are too clever by pointing out how you are snorting like a junkie in the bathroom. Your parents have given you the world and you do not respect yourself enough to keep your nose clean.
Since you have all the answers; figure out for yourself how to cut back. Find out what you are doing to your body and your mind and consider yourself lucky to be alive. Laugh your butt off. It will catch up with you and you will pay the price…you are making incredibly bad choices in life. Good luck.
on: 22nd April 13